written 10.12.05 – 10.18.05

In college I had a job that I loved. In fact, it's not even really fair to call it a job. It was my heart, my soul, and I lived and breathed it.

It was one of those things where you can think of nothing else - a full-fledged obsession. It was deep and guttural, and I was born to do it. It was like being in love for the first time.

And then I got fired.

My boss and I never saw eye-to-eye, and blame can be shifted and fingers pointed, but that obviously changes nothing.

Some things hurt so bad, some things get cast so far out to sea, some things get so very lost that they never come back.

I lost a part of me then, and I've not gotten it back. I don't think I ever will; other things I have gained, truly, but I have lost much to get them.


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